Hold On, You’re Almost There

Hold On, You’re Almost There

For almost a year she taught to moved back to India and almost doubt herself for not giving her best. Isn't it we always found ourselves in a situation where we know we have a potential of doing more and we almost taught our entire life we gonna crake the code and will do wonder in this world, well I am not sure about the rest of the human being judgeling in their 20s, but I almost taught I will do something great, something I could be proud of myself every morning. 

I moved to sydney, did my gradycation and before passing outy from the college, I already had an experience of working with a top brand as a marketing specialist, yet from last one month almost I felt like not best of myself. 

Last month, I got graduated and I am in my mid twenties. Well Why I suddenly feel like a nurd? Because when you start scorlling LinkedIn instead of Insta you definetly is going to feel WTF. And when I corrected my profile something hit my heart so deeply. Wow, look at the short of experince I had. I wanted to jmped in to marketing world the day I have realised the corporative juggle here in the Australia and doorway to get in to the business and management. I worked and proved myself almost everyday that I am gonna keep that promise to myself of doing great one day. Then why?

But it is not. Somehow that moment I felt, just this? Working 9-5? Working for other? Despite knowing I am good at what I am doing but there is no solid exloration to the world I wanted as a kid in the path I have chosen. And most importranlty the world has evolved, people are doing so so good at thier 20s even. One has started his own agency, one is participating in Miss World, one is running her own e-commerce website so I am definetly not that close even. Isn't it same with all of us? 

Well I spent almost a week feeling drown. I could hear the silence around me even in the loudest area of Sydney. For a week, my soul felt this. Moving train, crowded metro, Covered coffee shop with giggling of people and greeting of people was just a complete silence to me. 

Next day, I had a day off. And I was just clearing my few items sitting on my cupboard where I found my black book. So the book is about all of my little achievement like I didn't wanted to wake up yet I made an efforts and did my job. 

As I was scrolling the pages of my book, one after one doubt of mind has started shifting to clamess and pinch of proud. I know I am not running any agency, I am hot yet not participated in Miss World or yes I have lot of ideas of building another source of income for myself but I have not tried yet. It is okay. 

I am not there, But I am almost there. Look at my surrounding. People are highly gradated from recognised university to work where I am working, They are from different culture, They had a best eduaction and they have been trained since they were kid to fit themselves in a corporative world. They didn't have to juggle to rent a home, to buy the grocery paying their own fees, or even feeling a void of being socially isolated.  They didn't had to deal with the trauma of moving to different country, and adjusting themselves in a complete a different culture. Cherry on the cake, they have a fair skin and aussie accent so no resism, but ofc we do! Something even we cannot complain about. 

Next day, When I was standing in a coffee queue of one of my favourite Cafe at North Sydney (Sydney biggest business hub) I just had a proud on my face and a big smile. 

BECAUSE

I was in the queue where people has worn branded long jacket, a shoes, work pant, expensive tote work bag and sleek bun, I was there in that queue. Hey, I am standing with them, sharing a same table at work to discuss the marketing and business ideas, Getting compliment for having verstile cultural knowledge and preserving my place without introducing myself. 

I am almost there. If with all these challenge, I could share a glass of wine despite being an Asian with these people, well I know what power I have to built the world of my choise. It is not late, It is not less, It is just happing at his own time. 

It might take time, But I will. 

Bcz, Hold On, You’re Almost There!